Unspoken

Whenever I feel myself falling back into the everyday regular routine... The universe reminds me that that is no longer acceptable. The scars of the past few weeks are still very real and whenever I feel something coming up... That's when I just know that I have to move in the opposite direction of what I have been doing. [redirect my focus and energy]

The triggers have been pointed out. The signs are apparent when I feel an anger uprising. When certain things that are done and or said ... Instead of forcing everything outward... I need to look inward and take care of myself. And do for me. The strongest and most manipulating fears come up and I know to not listen to them and to take the risk. My body and soul is in so much anguish because I focus and obsess and have developed an intimacy with my partner that I have yet to give my own self.