My birthday has come and gone and its been a fairly quiet week compared to the past few weeks. However, I have seen myself falling and holding onto the past this week. I feel like I see the same routines taking place and I know that underneath it all that this is not the right way. This is why I must recognize the major shifts that need to take place and not ignore them.
Another long discussion last night with my partner, made me see that I am still in the thick of this shift. A lot of the karmic and painful subconscious feelings are still prominent and fighting for attention. But I am feeling even more able after so many conversations and events and tears... I feel the extra need to push forward. Or I know the UNIVERSE will push me either way. So either i go willingly or get bullied into it. Taurus Bulls don't like to be bullied!!
The Transformation is underway. It has been happening for some time now. And i believe the biggest shedding of the skin, the biggest sprout is underway. I am entering into maybe the last stages of this transformation. But it is the hardest stages. Letting go of the pain-body that has dictated to me how I see and present myself in the world. I imagine it's like losing those last 5lbs on a long weight loss journey. It's only 5 lbs, but its the hardest 5lbs because you are so close.
I AM SO CLOSE to the major shift that will pull everything into place into the new way of life I am creating. I'm so close ....
I feel the growing pains...i fear they will be the most painful. Which is why even more I must push push push through the all the gunk, all the petty shit and get down to the root of the problem.
I finally want to free myself from this deep rooted insecurity that has plagued me for over 25 years
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