Food intake -- deeper motivations

Last year I was on a high enjoying just any kind of result on my fitness journey. Though I had still struggles with my eating and thus I could see moments when I was slimmin and other moments where I was stagnant or thickening up a bit. I surely have found a peace in knowing that as a woman my body is different everyday. For about 2 weeks out of the month I'll always feel a lil more PLO and I have learned to accept that, find a peace with it and even enjoy it. 

But I've always struggled with eating and I think it's because I've looked at it the wrong way. I feel a deeper motivation to eat better. And all that has happened is a better relationship between me and my stomach. I just listen and feel. I'm taking note of the foods that make me feel ok and good. And the foods that leave me feeling sick, in pain, or just sluggish. That's all I'm focused on is just staying in time with my body. 

I'm finding more inspiration also because I know that fitness and working out can get me pretty far, but there are times when I can't work out. There are times when I will have to rely in my eating to keep my body in check. 

I also am seeing pics and while I've slimmed down, I really want to achieve my dream body. This is my check-in. Not a scale. I use my eyes to see my visual results. I use my physical feeling to check in what's going in inside. These methods work well for me cause they motivate me more than a number. I'm more motivated to my eat certain things, and to try out new healthier options cause I can feel the difference when I'm more energized and when I just feel sick and sluggish. Visual results motivate me very well too. I know and see that I've slimmed down, but I do want to see my body in its best shape. I've come up with my own theories and am focusing on my sugar intake at the moment. I think I do have an unbalanced and unhealthy forms of sugar. And I know it is sugar that fucks with my hormones and it contributes to the disproportionate parts of my body. I've loved drinking coke my whole life... I think I'm finally going to be able to let go of it now that I see why I must.