Song Title Challenge

10 song titles..

I'm a Fool
Superficial
What you do 2 me
Still I Rise
Nail Polish
Curious
Daddy Issues
Oxy
Requiem
Huntress

10 more song titles..

mindf*ck
im a star
bye
drowning
he could fly
perfume
double
weak
loner

New beginnings

“So therefore i dedicate myself to myself to my art, my dreams, my labours, my unique madness, my endless absorption and hunger- because i cannot dedicate myself to any fellow being.”

Jack Kerouac

Here I stand with life ahead of me. No place to hide.

Today is the first day of the rest of my life.

These moments happen. 4 graduation ceremonies and I know the routine. You move on to the next stage in your life.

I have been working at this spa for almost 4 years. While I was challenged from the day I walked through the door. I experienced the biggest challenge in being the unit manager for the past 11 months.

I have truly learned a lot about myself in the past 11 months. Many things I am proud of. Other things, I am not. But overall I am leaving this company a completely different person than when I walked in. And although there were many unpleasant moments, there were minor victories.

Here the day after my goodbye, I am almost scared of what's to come. I realize how absorbed I have been in the company. It's like I'm walking out into the sun after hibernating for a full year.
I am comfortable with what I know. And all I have known is this job.

I am grateful for this move. I just needed to get out but it is hard to let go. It disgusts me how hard it is for me to let go. But it's the institutionalized brain if mine I guess.

I can't explain the feeling that I have right now. It's def not security I feel. I am nervous and curious all at the same time .

I think I am now at the point where In order to get what you want you have to make drastic decisions. You have to take a leap of faith. You have to know when to let go and move on.

OFFDASHOULDA: Feeling Back on Track

"PROCRASTINATION IS FACING THE REALITY YOU RESENT. ITS NATURAL. JUST PLUNGE RIGHT IN..." --- @askmonte

WOW. I absolutely love this saying and i do believe it is so true.

I have been procrastinating on a lot of things, my songwriting, my singing, my exercising, cleaning my house, leaving my current job.....

My life has felt like a slow moving train, and i'm the conductor.

This weekend, i've been away in the Hamptons on my own and although its not a set-up that i would enjoy, I am finding this time to be very useful. I've busted through my procrastination when it comes to the backed up work that I needed to get done. I've also been able to take 2 fitness classes!

Just a few months ago, I was on a roll, working out 3-4x a week! But as soon as my routine gets disturbed, i find it is very hard for me to get back on track. Now that I've pushed through my resentfulness of my reality, I am feeling a little more back on track. And i'm feeling a little more like myself.

The past few weeks, my weight gain has really brought me down. I not only feel sluggish, but I just feel heavy and immobile. Its amazing what just one fitness class can do. There are no immediate results when it comes to looks. However, the rush of sweating and pushing your body to its limits energizes you in a way that nothing else can. I also realized how much tension I was holding in my body, just from the stress of whats been going on and because I haven't been taking care of myself.

Body inspiration

Today i will begin my fitness journey. 

and yes my friends

it will be a JOURNEY. 

wish me luck. 

and please comment!

OFFDASHOULDA: A True Artist..?

In my insomnia tonight...

I am plagued with the question.... what makes a true artist?

The artists that I know and love give me inspiration. They make me want to do better with myself..

with MY life.

Artists come in all forms.. painters, actors, singers, performers...dancers..and so much more. They are given a talent, and then they nurture it.

They use it as an outlet. And they develop something that uniquely belongs to them.

i aspire to be a true artist. Someone that can touch other people and move them. Sometimes I question if i'm making moves from the wrong direction.. the outside in..instead of the inside out. A true artist isn't looking for the opportunities first..I believe the truest of truest artists are relentlessly developing their craft. not just for the opportunity, but for the cause....

Tonight.. I ask myself.. what is my cause? What AM I fighting for?

my first post

I have been free. This whole time. 

 The Choice is mine. Here I will share. 

Hope you like. 

but you don't have to. 

;P Krena