I have been understanding Karma for a while now. Ever since Saturn came to visit me in 2012 and I made the biggest move out of my own prison and left my job, I have danced with the knowledge of the power of Saturn. So as I approach my life today and the relationships in it, i take responsibility for all of them. Some might find this to be unbearable and slightly sadistic, but there is ultimate and infinite power when you are capable of seeing that you are the karma, everything you created does come back to you. I approach my relationship with the understanding necessary and now I think its important to be the change that I wish to see in them.
I want so much for others to "get" what I'm doing, but maybe its the very fact that they don't get it that makes me do it. And for my relationship, where he is discovering his own path, that I encourage him to go at it alone. For it is my karma that the attachment has become so strong that it is literally suffocating. And for another time of reflection I get a dose of my own spell. So I stick with the relationship in the knowing of the karmic reward that comes with such a kind of love. Love that is learning to let go of conditions and take responsibility for what it has created. I desire to look back at these times and see it was a sliver of a phase and that ultimately it was totally worth it. And I already say it is so; so it is. In fact we are merely steps away from collecting what is due. So I want him to see what i'm doing is real to me, but I don't have to because its important for both of us to experience what it feels like to go down our own paths. And I want to be the change I want to see by supporting him on his individual path. The more I do this, the more I feel the new phase of this relationship.
What is interesting to me is the constant denial of Music being metaphysical. But not just music, but the whole industry. My witches (wise women) get it. They know everything is thickly coded, but it is my musician "friends" who seem to be stuck in the old traditional Capricorn way of seeing the industry. Fit into a mold, invest money, find a niche etc. The funny thing is I do see what they see. It's just do they see what I see? That when metaphysics is applied, all of these other aspects of "industry" come together like a dance. I see now that there is much work to do. I have found my calling. For it has always been there waiting for me to find it. The true spirituality behind the vibrations and energetic frequencies of music. The enchanting poetry and spell with the lyrics, are all layers of the "industry" metaphysically that i have come to explore. Now I give myself the right to do so freely, publicly and unapologetically. "They" think they have it all figured out, but live lives lost. Maybe I do not have the fanciest car or house to live in. Maybe my edges aren't "laid" and shit, but I got knowledge and it feeds my soul. I got the gas. I have the key! The DARK HORSE is the answer to the problems in my world.
I want to learn to navigate this knowledge to help others while helping myself gain a better life. I do deserve the home that suits me and it is in the journey towards a better living environment that I learn even more about the metaphysics; therefore I am eternally grateful. I am so filled with gratitude for the people i am meeting everyday who remind me of who i am. I am grateful for the situations that I feel are burdens because they pressure me to become clearer and more refined in my shine. I desire to open doors for others. I take responsibility for the role i have chosen in this life. I will not be saddened when others mis-understand my energy; I will merely see that they are not ready. Just as I was once not ready. I will not judge others on their individual paths, even if it is in oppositional direction of mine. I will help them to love their own individual roles so that I too can learn to love mine. I often still feel feelings of jealousy, but i am learning to alchemize it into changing my position from follower to creator. This is why I overstand the jealousy that is directed at me. The more that I experience all aspects of human life, the more i can take from it and put it in my magick.
I feel everyone has a story, from birth to the present moment, we are trying to figure out what the full story is.
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