Changing Lanes & The Power of staying in your OWN

I never quite understood what it meant when people told me to stay in your own lane. As a natural rebel, I have understood this to be s form of control and it wasn't something I was down for. But as we mature and learn more of what this really means, we come to a place where the things we didnt understand come pouring in with light and knowledge.

Lately my endeavors and rituals on facebook have been agitating me as I see other starseeds doing their thang, but not always taking responsibility for the response. I have observed that they merely want people to yes them all the way to success. And I have found some situations, okay... let me be better with my words.. I have judged some situations to be completely reckless. Now, i too am reckless, so already i'm making a double judgement. But what really was the problem for me was that when I would respectfully disagree, they would not give me the answer I was looking for... which ultimately was compliance. And then in great epiphanies that come to me on the regular, i realized that I cannot control others and when i get out of my lane, thats what ends up happening.

So when someone says "Stay in your own lane" it may not be to have control over you, but it teaches you to have control over yourself and your own work, agenda, vision etc. Often when you start changing lanes, is when you begin to crash into others. So its imperative for those who are like me with the karma, crash identity to really embrace the beauty of driving down solo in our own lane. Only then can we learn the beauty of control, which is to manifest your own destiny.

I have begun a very intimate relationship with the darker side of me. I recognize that this side of me unleashes itself constantly on facebook, because it can be a low vibrational platform sometimes, depending on the state of my own mind. So often, if not in the right state, I know myself to be provoked by jealousy, which is really a disease of the mind in being a follower. Sometimes it is amazing to be a follower and you are inspired by others like how i have been for several youtubers, 13signsastrology, fleurbrun, Makalesi and so many others. But often, when we are following people who are not at our frequency it can cause us to have lower feelings which are really signals alerting us to get out of the following role. This leader is no longer serving you, and its time to become your own leader. It is time to create your path. To create you own lane.

Now as I see some people on my facebook growing and changing their paths, opening up to ideas and frequencies that i have been following, they begin to resonate with me in a different way. Thus, I realize that everyone has their own journey. And when I release the need to control other people's journey, I am instantly open and free to operate in mine. I realize that I have been feeling limited due to the nature of some ideas. But truly when I get back in my own lane I see clearly that what I am doing, and have been doing is solid, light spreading work. Just like how others are doing on my timelines. So its imperative for me to shine brighter, to do what I have been called to do, which is not like any other. I am learning that a "following" is not important to grow as much as my own lane will. When I cave out a path, and leave a trail behind, others will follow and i will be fulfilled in learning that I have had an impact on others. So now I have a new way of looking at things.

My code of ethic for staying in my own lane resides in various understandings and morally laid out plans. I will continue to do what I desire to do, despite my fears or what others will think of me. I will take calculated action, and be integral with my words, but I will not stunt or slow myself down to a stop anymore. I will not change lanes, unless I feel its time for me to react or dodge from others, or take an initial move in order to protect my work. I do not desire to stunt others and their work only help and encourage them. If my words are not helpful or encouraging then I will transform them into fresh energy to use for myself.

DAWNING: When the Light seeps in the Cracks

I have been waking up with a special angelic message. It is as if my higher self is talking to me, whispering to me the secrets of the universe. I try my best to hold on. I typically get the big picture, but I can't remember all the details she said just before my eyelids open to the morning. I have grown accustomed to her company, as Jupiter transiting in my 12th house, is revealing to me the angels amongst us.

I have always had a divine understanding of spirit, but it has not always been something I could fully grasp. Even now, i'm looking for something, but I don't know what it is. I hear spirit more than I see it. I hear it in the birds, I hear it in the trees, and I hear it in my ears as I arise. I believe spirit is always there, always with me, but I just never was listening for it.

Constantly swarmed with thoughts about what I need to be doing, I have often found myself going in circles. I feel my potential. Its like a divinely, rich cup of coffee waiting to be sipped. I see the possibilities of my future, and I want to manifest it so bad. But the thoughts seem to slip away from me just as quickly as they come. I feel I need to hold a 'thought trap' in my pocket just so as it comes I can record it and never forget. There is always a part of me that wants control and organization. And there is another part of me battling with living in the moment. I feel there is a deep fear that I will have wasted my life away if not seizing the opportunities. And when I do, seize those opportunities, I still feel like I am coming up short.

I'm always trying to find the rhythm to my days. When do I clean, when do I play, when do I work. I inherently desire to play and live life like i'm always on vacay. But, too much play and I wake up to the stench of all that I have neglected. There is apart of me that desires to live light and free... enjoying every action that I take, embracing the memories. And there is apart of me that is disgusted at the actions I miss, the opportunities that keep passing me by, and the constant insecurity that I'm not really sure what i'm doing. I feel the weight of my actions as I see no one is really giving me the support I need. So much need that i have. Sometimes I wish I did not need anything at all.

I am hoping that in this year, in this time, I can find my bliss. I'm so tired of not knowing. I am ready to have the sure knowing that my life is important.