First hair check-in

My hair journey has come a long way. But last year I really spent no time on my hair. I'm seeing a lot if space in my strands. It still has some length but it is very thin.

Apart of my artistry is to have gorgeous hair. So I'm back on my regimen. We're gonna nurture these strands to their ultimate sexiness.

First I'm gonna start with my relaxer.

I'm prepping my hair for a relaxer in 3 days.

After that, I am gonna do

1) two washes a week, one is a poo wash, the other will be a deep conditioning co-wash.

2) I will alternate with protein deep conditioning and moisturizing deep conditioning.

3) I will get a sulfate free moisturizing shampoo. Hair one.

4) I need to get coconut oil.

5) I need to have a nighttime regimen. Moisturize , seal, and then satin/silk scarf wrap

Star quality

What makes star quality? How do you step out from the rest and be a star?

Is it the makeup an outfits?

The money?

I think it's just the experience. When you see the world through those eyes.... It's like you are elevated on a different level above the rest.

In "the artists way" it touches on jealousy and how to combat that. Basically it says if you find yourself in a jealous moment look at it and think about emulating the event that caused such greenery behind the eyes.

Today I tried it. As I felt the jealousy monster poke from under my bed. I thought about switching places.
Or thinking.... Could I emulate this tomorrow?

The truth was simple. No. I'm not ready.

No reason for jealousy here because this person is ready and I'm not.

In fact, I have no time now to be jealous because I am now planning how I am gonna be ready.

G'nite.

K

New moon

It has been quite a crazy two weeks into January. I am enjoying the transition. Granted I've always been a little hesitant with changes, I have welcomed this new change into my life. I am proud of what I have been able to accomplish, how I handled myself in a stressful position, and I'm proud of the new me facing the brisk changes.

This week I've sunk into a better mode of working. I've had such wonderful free time and I'm looking forward to more of it.

This is the year of changes for me and I'm definitely ready for something new, a new adventure and a new me!

Immediately I felt a shift change in my stress after December 30th came and gone. I am more focused, taking better care of myself and really soaking in the present moment.

It's a beautiful thing. I could cry.....

It's almost as beautiful as this gorgeous blush that I came across in the mac store today!

January nails

New nails!

Rewards

Someone very special said this to me
"You have arrived, now step out of the car"

In 6 weeks I would love to reward myself with a purchase from this gorgeous website, celebboutique.com

New Years nails

I love my nails!

The Push to Positivity

I am happy that I have life. I am grateful for a roof over my head. I am grateful for a job that provides me income and the opportunity to be challenged and to grow. It is quite easy for me to write when I have something to complain about.

But lately, even with the situations being thrown at me. i am working to adapt and dodge. lol.

This week's biggest theme and lesson to me is the re-focus to my own well-being. Sometimes it is difficult to do this, because I feel like it is just being selfish. But I realize more and more how my ability to help others and serve relies on my well-being. The P/PC Balance. The Production and Production Capability balance. The ability to produce relies on the the capabilities to produce. It is a pretty simple idea. I use it in my manager role with my team. I use it with the singing company that I work with.

Now, i must take a step back and revisit my production capabilities. lately I feel drained and unable to perform at my best. I pride myself on working hard. Lately, i am becoming overworked. overstressed. unbalanced. restless. insominiactic (new word), tired. bored. reckless. absentminded. relentlessly lazy,
bitchy. aggressive. timid. and scattered. this is not my best.

so what is the best of me? what does it look like?

my best is content. peaceful. at ease. happy. playful. ambitious. dreamer. smart worker. firecracker. intelligent. teacher. leader. loving. creative. and successful!

my dreams are big. i believe i am allowed to fulfill them. i don't know where i got this audacity from. but, its one of the things that i love about myself!

this year. i look at it. and i think. did i do it right? did i seize the day?! did my dreams come true??
not really. and then...

was it me? or was it them?
did they attack me? or ...did I react?

did they put me in the bad situations? or...did i make bad decisions?

did they dictate my choice?... or did i use them as an excuse?

here i am available to choose intelligently. 

can i attract a better life for myself? from the INSIDE OUT, i see that there is no one to look at but myself. yes the circumstances i cannot control. but i can control myself. i can love myself. i can attract things. i can detour to a NEW PATH.

here i can set my boundaries.

here i am available to be at peace with what is now.

I am on my way to GREATNESS.