This blog has been through many different paths as I've merely reflected upon the different journeys i've begun. But truly the ancestors and guides have reminded me that it all started with Music.
And its so interesting, that at this point in my life, I no longer have the need to be the famous superstar singer that I thought I was gunning for all this time. This is because I've learned how music has been my most spiritual tool and guide throughout my life, and it no longer has the longing to be famous for riches and fame sake. Its truest gift has been to open my heart to unconditional love and acceptance of my unique self and others. It is my bible. It is my coping mechanism. And it is my healing.
But there is a part of me that is always longing to keep music in my life and at the forefront of what I do. It has now grounded itself in confidence that it no longer needs approval of a grammy award to be what it is for me; to be what it always has been for me in fact. And my entire relationship with my music, especially now is divine, and apart of me. So why is it that I keep leaving it behind now?
I believe that it is always in my pocket, guiding me and when I put it in front of me it will guide me continuously. But maybe i'm afraid to put it out in front of me because I know it is mine. But thats whats beautiful about being an Artist is that even though it was yours, you share it with the world for them to see you was there; you lived. And my music tells a story, of me once where I needed something and of now... where I have found and discovered it. It really is a beautiful thing. I see now that the Universe wants me to remember to never forget my first love.
It all started with music. I used to tell my subconscious that I would never forget to keep my music as my roots. I never wanted to be the kid in music school that changed her career path and left music behind me. I always believed I would become the singer I desired. And even though, I didn't know what it would look like, i feel I see now what it is. I see that its the time i've been waiting for...
All I have to do is remember.
