Nothing to Lose and Everything to Gain

The concept of a weight loss journey is just not self-loving or serving enough for me. Obsessing over numbers, before and afters, calorie counts, sugar or fat --- I let it all go at the end of 2012-13 when I began working out for the fun of it. 

Yes, I had goals of weight loss but my perspective transformed greatly more than ever before. I put away the fit magazines, Stopped hating my body and  started loving it. I stumbled into a workout that I loved, and I began enjoying the journey of beating my own fitness challenges. I focused on loving and challenging myself while remembering to have fun. I pulled it back when I felt I needed nurturing, I pushed when I felt like I needed a challenge. And I let go the concept of weight loss or trying to lose weight. I embraced the concept of gaining more love and respect for myself. 

As I pursue my goals, and have to measure myself to some degree, I recall this new way of life. The concept of gaining--- not losing. I'm not stressing about losing weight. I'm inspired about gaining more knowledge for my fitness practice. More inspiration is being put into my pockets. I workout not to lose but to gain a whole new way of being; a whole new life for myself. 

Saturn-Day Nostalgia

Times will always have challenge. As the challenge reminds me that there is more edges of mine to smooth. However, the nostalgic sentiments surrounding my Saturn Return are familiar. I recall feeling similarly last year as I watched Saturn move away from its conjunction to my natal. 

These same feelings occur and they boggle me. As This transit has been quite heavy with and restraint. As I endure another infamous Saturnday filled with karmic atmosphere, I felt the light. I felt that despite the heavy, there is this new lightweight aura. I feel that the possibilities are there for me. Were even before this transit, I could not see, I see clearly. Which is why I am nostalgic to my Saturn return ending as it is this time in my life that forced me to seek these possibilities. And now they are there ready for me to take them. They were always there, right under my nose. But I could not see the vision until I was challenged to, and I must say these past 3 years have put me in this position. 

I do not know what the future holds, but I know that I'm in it and I'm conquering my goals. Much love to Saturn and all the lessons. Much love. 

No More Pointless Part-times part 2

Perfect time to revisit a post as we are in the middle of a Mercury Retrograde. Re-looking and redoing. In my post, 'No More Pointless Parttimers', I expressed my new endeavors to create situations that inspire and feed my passions. This, I concluded, that after this year, I would not participate in any pointless part-timers. What I didn't see, was that I would have to reform my current part-time. Yes, this job is the last stop. The last pointless, mechanical job I will commit to. But in order for this to happen, I would have to make this current part-time important and with a point!!! 

The key to change is to make it yourself. The key to desiring this change is to not wait for an outside force to bring it to you. And this, is how I will make this goal of mine manifest. 

By changing my part-time right now and making it work for me. Not just taking classes to build my endurance, but also during shift, recording classes and taking down notes from the atmosphere. This is how I am ensuring that everything I do from now on has purpose. Transforming this part-time to purpose time.