I have now 3 blogs that I contribute to, each fulfilling a part of me that needs addressing. The Chosen Path is unique because its the shoulder I truly vent on, the blog that is for me and not for me. The one that has one structure and none at all. I am free to let my fingers do the typing and let me brain do the venting. This is where I can channel my intentions and the fears that come as side effects. My recent actions to create a public blog has been about contributing to the public through my private experiences. I want to change the world, one word at a time. But through Chosen Path, i've realized that the best way to effectively change the world is to work on myself and be an example to others and allow them to be the ones to decide how they want to take it.
I've been searching within to find some sort of connection to my music, my blogging and my astrological studies. And I keep trying to separate them, but all three are me. just like how all three of my blogs are me, expressing different aspects of myself. What i have not done is put panic into who is reading my two initial blogs. This third one is a public confession, a public example, THE PLATFORM, that reveals who I am, what I've done, and What i've learned. i've been stalling for weeks to write on my public blog, because i'm fearful of what people will think. That i'm disorganized, unreliable -- all the things i learned about blogging that makes it successful. But with my other two, i've allowed it to be in natural timing, whenever i feel compelled, and without worry because although they are public, they really are for me. Its the public exposure that gets me every time. So now that I want to publicly tie my gifts and ideas together, i'm sabotaging my own self by worrying about the public. It needs to be for me, and them. Thats how all of my split personalities have always worked, and I believe it is the way for me. Here we go. Off to write that next blog post for real now!
