I am happy that I have life. I am grateful for a roof over my head. I am grateful for a job that provides me income and the opportunity to be challenged and to grow. It is quite easy for me to write when I have something to complain about.
But lately, even with the situations being thrown at me. i am working to adapt and dodge. lol.
This week's biggest theme and lesson to me is the re-focus to my own well-being. Sometimes it is difficult to do this, because I feel like it is just being selfish. But I realize more and more how my ability to help others and serve relies on my well-being. The P/PC Balance. The Production and Production Capability balance. The ability to produce relies on the the capabilities to produce. It is a pretty simple idea. I use it in my manager role with my team. I use it with the singing company that I work with.
Now, i must take a step back and revisit my production capabilities. lately I feel drained and unable to perform at my best. I pride myself on working hard. Lately, i am becoming overworked. overstressed. unbalanced. restless. insominiactic (new word), tired. bored. reckless. absentminded. relentlessly lazy,
bitchy. aggressive. timid. and scattered. this is not my best.
so what is the best of me? what does it look like?
my best is content. peaceful. at ease. happy. playful. ambitious. dreamer. smart worker. firecracker. intelligent. teacher. leader. loving. creative. and successful!
my dreams are big. i believe i am allowed to fulfill them. i don't know where i got this audacity from. but, its one of the things that i love about myself!
this year. i look at it. and i think. did i do it right? did i seize the day?! did my dreams come true??
not really. and then...
was it me? or was it them?
did they attack me? or ...did I react?
did they put me in the bad situations? or...did i make bad decisions?
did they dictate my choice?... or did i use them as an excuse?
here i am available to choose intelligently.
can i attract a better life for myself? from the INSIDE OUT, i see that there is no one to look at but myself. yes the circumstances i cannot control. but i can control myself. i can love myself. i can attract things. i can detour to a NEW PATH.
here i can set my boundaries.
here i am available to be at peace with what is now.
I am on my way to GREATNESS.
